This is my first day in four months without some kind of behavior-changing drug in my system (not counting the experimental discontinuation several weeks ago that saw me scrambling back to the medicine cabinet and my little pill to head off nausea and deep bone and head aches). It’s not without ambivalence that I return to my physical baseline–I think that I and the people around me have enjoyed John on a low constant dose of Effexor. It suppressed my sympathetic system just enough to remove that constant stress-induced edge. I was less cranky, less mopey, less critical and probably an easier person to be around. I wonder, too, what else I was “less” of.

My brain is foggy and fatigued, but so far, so good. I can thank a weekend of prozac for helping to hold the artificial flu at bay. And behold! A blog post for you.