I’m determined to write a post today, but half of my lunch hour is gone and I’m still staring at the WordPress version of a blank page.
My relationship to Mind on Fire has shifted repeatedly over the years. It began as something intimate, brief postings read only by friends I knew IRL. As I wrote more about my struggle with Mormonism, readership grew, and my posts became more essay-like, maybe even a bit more official. I asked then-Miko/now-xJane to join as my partner-blogger. We’ve tried hard to stick to a set of core topics, revolving primarily around religion. Most of us (at least the vocal among us) have left a religious tradition or are currently in an dysfunctional relationship with one.
The thing is, I’m tired of writing about religion. The struggle with belief and church doesn’t define my life quite the way it used to. I mean, it’s still there, but it’s one facet among many. I’m still interested in its quirks, but I’ve lost my obsession with it.
This has impacted my writing. I’ve always blogged out of compulsion, rather than out of duty. I want to get back to my roots. I promise to write about religion when it pisses me off, or does something too bizarre to escape commentary. I also realize that many of you are transitioning from your old communities and worldviews, perhaps struggling with isolation, depression and anger. I won’t abandon you–You’re my people! But I’m going to experiment with writing from the heart once again. More intimate notes to pass under the desk to you, fewer reports to read in front of the Religion 101 class.
xJane is a free agent in this space. I’m not sure how she’ll respond to my change, but whatever she writes, it will continue to be Full of Awesome™, because that’s just how she is.
Thanks for sticking with MoF in 2008. I hope you’ll continue to hang with us in the coming year.
