decembers are bad for mindonfire.com.

writing on this journal came slowly to a halt and my blogging power slowly atrophied until i revived it again many months later.

once again, i stopped posting early in december. i suppose that this is one of the benefits of journaling (in any form). you can look back on your life from a hightened perspective and notice things that would otherwise remain hidden as we peer out with our little red rat eyes in the high-walled mazes of daily life. journals can reveal growth or personal characteristics (good or bad) or trends–like the mysterious cessation of writing during decembers.

i am determined to buck the trend. i have a million tasks all screaming out for attention, but i will ignore them for a little while, and spend a moment or two with you. this time the mindonfire break will last only one month, instead of many. next time, armed with this knowledge about myself, perhaps i can commit to writing solidly throughout the month of december. maybe i can then discover what is so hard about them.